Back on Track

I've gotten out of the habit of posting regularly and that makes me a little sad. I like to pretend that it matters and it definitely helps.

School is off to a good start. I don't think I'm going to be as overwhelmed as I initially thought. They aren't assigning massive amounts of reading at one time and that's helpful. I already want to beat French over the head with a hammer though. Those fucking listening sections stress me out. Like.... whoa. Yeah. Social Justice is going to be extremely helpful I think. I've been floundering about my future career and yeah... I think this might help. At least it will keep me motivated. I am, however, getting a little sucked into the thought that there is too much to do and I'm not going to be able to put a dent into it... but I still have to try, right? Right?.... Yeah. I'm also taking History of Modern Philosophy (Honors Section, ouch). We're reading Descartes's Meditations right now. He's not as bad as I was afraid he would be but I'm not into the meat of it yet. Judgement suspended. Let's see... oh yes, the other class is Argumentation and Debate. It'll be a breeze really. I may end up chopping some heads off of people but I should have a solid A.

Stuff with C is going well. Yesterday was really rocky due to a huge freak-out on my part but we talked it out and I think the problem is solved. He listens and he doesn't ridicule, even when I'm being ridiculous. I'm going to marry him. Just sayin.

Other than that... I'm... ok. I can feel stress knocking at the door but it hasn't actually hit yet. I need to get my butt in gear and email potential speakers for this semester's Amnesty events. I might make the secretary do it... I'm more of a planner. I fail as a doer. We're having 4 lectures and a write-o-thon this semester. It's going to be epic awesome. We're doing some stuff with LGBT rights and Global Health. Pretty excited. We even had a couple new people show up to last week's meeting. It was very exciting. :)

Um.... I think that's it really. I'm trying to keep a cool head and not freak too much and not get stressed. So far so good. I'm even succeeding with not pouring out all my lovey-dovey feelings for C here. That kinda makes me happy... I refuse to lose myself in this relationship while at the same time committing myself totally and completely. I won't hide from him. I won't hide anything. I don't want him to hide anything. But I will always be me. Always. I won't change for anyone. More importantly, he doesn't want me to. I consider this a very good sign. We're going to make it. Just sayin. :)

Well. That is all folks. Tune in next time for more exciting (and by that I mean dull) updates!