The Things I Wanted to Say

• You'll be in bed soon enough, so you won't have to deal with me anymore.
• I'd hardly call it a rage. Definitely in comparison to what I wanted to say. 
• You made it worse on purpose. It's not always just my fault.
• When you say nothing but "ok" 9 times in a row and I tell you that I want you to stop, it's not funny when you don't. 
• When you tell me about how hot you think another woman is it doesn't make me feel good about myself. Not when you tell me that what makes her hot are things that you continuously tell me that I don't have. It actually makes me feel pretty shitty.
• When you tell me I won't understand what you're thinking or feeling, it makes me feel like a failure.
• When I am trying not to argue and you are an ass, it pisses me off and makes me feel like I am the only one trying. 
• When I can't tell you what I think because it will cause an argument, it makes me feel like shit.
• When I have to shut my mouth and not argue and play the role of the docile girlfriend it makes me twitch and want to punch you in the face just to prove that I am strong.
• I don't care about the fucking movies!!!!!!
• I want you to talk to me.
• I want you to WANT to talk to me.
• I want you to call me without me asking.
• I want to talk to you every night and I want you to actually want the same thing.
• I want you to want me.
• I want you to love me.
• I want to stop fighting.
• I want to make you happy.
• I want you to make me happy.
• I want you to try.
• Do you love me at all?
• Why?
• I hate you.
• You hurt me without knowing it.
• You hurt me without meaning to.
• You hurt me when you can't get up the energy to call me and tell me goodnight. 
• You hurt me when you put everything before me.
• You hurt me when you don't make time for me.
• You hurt me when you wait until you are exhausted to call me.
• You hurt me when you say you don't care.
• I love you.
• Don't go.
• Please call me.
• I miss you.
• Do you know what happens when you leave, even to go to bed? I am filled with despair. Literally... despair.
• I feel helpless.
• You have too much power over me, whether you want it or not.
• I'm afraid I could lose myself...
• I'm sorry I get carried away.
• I'm sorry I get upset.
• I'm sorry I don't have myself under the kind of control you do.
• Stop killing me and just snuggle...
• Make love to me....
• Treat me like I'm precious to you.
• Make me feel loved.
• Make me feel special.
• Make me... feel.
• Care.
• Treat me like your girlfriend and not just a friend that's a girl.
• Treat me like you love me.
• I'm not sure if you noticed, but I AM the jilted girlfriend.
• What were you thinking about after you read that blog?