A Full Day

Today has been... interesting. I had a doctor's appointment today in which the doctor told me to leave and come back in a couple months. I was rather annoyed seeing as today is my day off and I could have wasted my morning away doing whatever I wanted... or cleaning. Whichever.

After my appointment I went to meet someone that I met on an online dating site. It was somewhat fun, I got to swing in the rain! It was grand. :) He didn't enjoy it as much seeing as it was quite cold... and wet... but whatever. I got my enjoyment. He made a couple of references to being attracted to me and wanting some kind of physical thing between us but I just really wasn't into it. Then again, I'm not really into it with anyone anymore. I dunno... At times the thought of sex literally repulses me. I told him that and you should have seen the look on his face, lol. It was great. I believe in total honesty though so he might as well know up front that I'm probably never going to want to sleep with him. On the bright side, he does have connections to a certain substance that a friend and I have been wanting to get our hands on... so... :D Just sayin.

I also had FemSex tonight. We talked about violation of boundaries. It was tough and got pretty emotional but I held it together. I was rather proud of myself actually. There was one girl there that I just wanted to hug the whole time. I knew she was having a tough time and I've so been there. I remember it well. I offered help to her in any way that she needed or wanted including to stay at my place if she ran out of other options or anything. I feel a kind of kinship with her... dunno if she reciprocates or not. Anywho, at the end of class we were talking about how we were kind of sad that it was coming to an end and we wanted some way to be able to stay in touch with each other so I suggested that we make FemSex not just a class on campus but also an organization for the girls who do want to stay in touch and maybe sponsor a couple of events on campus every year. They all thought it was a really idea so now I'm uber excited. :D

As I was leaving class tonight one of my friends and exes called. He and I have been slowly getting back in touch over the past several weeks and he was upset because of the ending of his current relationship. First I'll say I'm not thinking (seriously) of going back to him but I would dearly love to get close to him again. He and I literally used to be the best of friends whether we were dating or not. We've had quite a tumultuous relationship but it's always leveled out somehow. He works in a town about an hour and a half from here on the weekends so I told him he could stay here this weekend if he wanted to save him a few hours of driving time. It should be great to get to see him again. The last time I saw him we weren't really on very good terms.

Other than that the only thing on my mind at the moment is that I would love to just relax and talk to someone. It seems that today everyone has needed something from me or I have felt the need to help them in some way and I really just wanna calm down and chill with someone who doesn't need anything from me. I should have done that with the swing guy but I am always uneasy meeting someone new... so... yeah. Oh well. I'll find a way to unwind.