I talked to the guy I wrote about last night (we'll call him D) a few minutes ago. We were talking about video games, as usual, lol. There are a couple of games that he's been playing and I really want to check them out: Dragon Age Origins and Aion.

That's not the point of this blog though.

Somehow we got onto the subject of women's anatomy. Oh yes, I mentioned my discovery that I have a preference for smaller breasts. A discussion ensued, of course. Anyway... while we were talking I just kept getting pangs of jealousy/longing/what-the-fuck-ever and I was just wishing that... I don't know what I was wishing. I guess I was hoping he would still be attracted to me or something... or that he would make some comment about my anatomy in particular. I know it doesn't particularly matter and that it's not a big deal, but the point of this blog is for me to be honest with myself so that's what I'm doing. I'm not even *that* attracted to him really but every time I see his picture my stomach does that little flip.

I feel myself growing attached to C again. He has been more.... something the last couple of days. We're always flirty or just down right sexual but he's been more.. intimate? Can you be intimate through text? I guess so... so yeah. Intimate. I care for him and he cares for me but I have absolutely no idea where it's going. None. Not the slightest. I haven't a clue what he wants and asking him questions about it is never a good idea. I hope to see him in a few months... maybe then I'll know. I hope so.

Also... I need to be with a woman. I realized this during the course of my discussion with D, not that I didn't already know that, I just realized it was a more pressing need than I thought. The problem of course is that I haven't the slightest idea how to approach women romantically (still). Do they teach a class on this? If not, I'm writing a memo. It is necessary.

In other news, I don't think the meds are working. :( *sigh* Maybe it'll just take more than a day, lol.

That is all for today. Thank you for tuning in and have a wonderful night.