I'm Sad.

My last FemSex class was tonight. =/ I'm really going to miss it. It was nice to have a place to go and get to talk to a group of women about everything that goes along with being a woman. It was nice to pretend they were my friends and that they cared as well. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure some of them did care, but I know they all didn't. I was really hoping that by the end of the class I would have become friends with a couple of these people. It didn't happen. I mean... I would still love to... but... yeah... I fail at making friends with people. I don't know how to do it. And no one approached me and asked if I wanted to hang or anything so yeah... whatever.

I did, however, suggest that we all get back together and make FemSex into a student organization so that we could all keep in touch. I'm going to do my best to make sure that happens next semester. Maybe there's still hope. Maybe.

I'm sad for other reasons as well. I haven't talked to anyone except C for a couple days now and while he's generally good company when he's not... he's REALLY not. Last night he was not. He got upset about something, not having anyone to talk to maybe, but then wouldn't talk about it. That drives me batty. It also made me sad because I knew he was sad but I couldn't help him. Anyway, when I went to bed I ended up writing some crappy poetry. I haven't put it on my computer yet but I will... sometime. I might even post it.

I also miss A. She doesn't seem too happy either and I haven't talked to her much in a couple days which is just really... unusual. I haven't seen her since.... Sunday? Saturday? I don't remember but it has really been too long. Life is just not complete without her. Which is probably bad... but... I'm not going to try to change that. I think she'll stick around, at least for a while.

/sigh

I just... I dunno. I need to work on my paper. I need to figure out what the hell my paper is going to be about. Anywho... 'til next time.